Abandonment, apologies. It has been a long while. BUT, I’ve been extremely busy. I figured, perhaps, starting school would, in turn, promote more vivid thoughts that would give me numerous opportunities to write; however, it has done the opposite. I’ve realized that I enjoy sharing about literary and philosophical knowledge opposed to practical information — hence, the reason why I’ve probably been abandoning my tumblr. Besides, who doesn’t enjoy philosophical conversations, right? It’s usually the ice breaker to awkward silence, or the break to the stuttering of thoughts in figuring out what the next topic of conversation may be.
Anyway. Life has been AMAZING. Though, it’s been filled with nothing but quizzes, exams, homework assignments, midterms, and, of course, projects, I still can’t find myself to complain about it. I’m thinking it’s the BRILLIANT, yes I said it, THE brilliant significant other that has been keeping my state of mind on a positive, high, and elevated level. Considering the fact that I’m firmly committed in a long distance relationship, I’ve seen her more often than I had expected; DEFINITELY one hell of a pleasant surprise. Feeling blessed is something that everyone should experience once. Actually, let me rephrase that, blessed is a feeling that everyone should live their lives feeling till they die.
Death — we, as individuals who sometimes take life for granted, forget how easy it may come. Death comes. It may not come now, and it may not come in the imminent future; however, forgetting is the reason why many people are taken away when death comes around. A friend and I spoke over dinner today and discussed or, in better words, picketed in our own booth, about how sad it is to watch people live life constantly working, running errands, and basically over-booking every day with engagements. People keep themselves occupied, make all this money, get old, and die — without even being able to cherish their fortune. A family friend of hers was a business man, and of course, business men/women are ALWAYS delegating; never deviating from anything. So, he made bank — BIG BUCKS — owned a restaurant, a hotel, employed chauffeurs, and I’m sure he did much more. Then, when life decided that it didn’t want to play in his favor, the unfortunate happened. Death at the age of 45. THESE THINGS HAPPEN. I’m not going to recite the cliche motivational speel of ‘life is too short,’ however I do believe that when people know they’ve got a good thing, they shouldn’t take it for granted.
Acknowledge, engage, appreciate, treasure, admire, and grow.
It’s been awhile. These sporadic spurts just really aren’t working for me. So much for trying to keep up with a tumblr. Then again, I have been busy working every day since the second weekend of July — ouch. I’m currently at work and I’ve forgotten my book at home today. So thus, I’ve decided to use tumblr as an outlet to save my insanity from boredom. I haven’t had much on my mind lately since I’m “apparently” on cloud 9. And because of all the thrill that my friends have been throwing at me, then fine, I’ll just take it as it is and admit that they’re 100% on point. So what? It’s about time I start to feel as if everything is happening in my favor.
Aside from that, topics of conversations lately have narrowed itself down to a particular one that’s been sounding like a shrill of music in my ears — GOLD DIGGERS. Gold diggers that have obviously been doing quite a number on these wealthy individuals and feel as if they need to rely on others as their source of happiness. Really? It confuses me when people preach about their self proclaimed ‘pride’ and how it’s essentially a part of their natural being. But, aren’t you lowering down your pride and dismissing your morals when you throw yourself at someone for the means of their money? I, personally, find it disgusting.
Women from all around the world have came such a long way to prove to society and their social conventions that we have always been just as capable of doing whatever it was that men were doing — contributing to the community, taking a stand in political views, raising their voice to be heard, and etc. Much of which, men were graveled at their feet for as a form of appreciation (disgusting, yet again). So when I hear about how some women these days rely on “sugar daddys” to pay for all their expenses, how the hell does this act portray a sense of independence? … Because it doesn’t.
Suppressing your desires till you are capable of pursuing them on your own is a reminder that these women frequently need. Life isn’t easy, and I’m pretty sure that phrase has been reiterated since grade school. But, what can you do? This is society. I suppose there’s some sort of irrational justification for all their doings, and because of situations like this, we continue to see the inequality amongst genders. For me, if I must repeat myself for the last time, find this profoundly disgusting.
It’s been a long while since I’ve been on tumblr. It’s a shame. I promised myself I’d keep up with my postings when I first made this. And, just like any other blog I’ve created, I fall right out of habit. I’m sure once school session begins, I’ll be blogging left and right. All this free time from summer vacation has strayed my concentration towards fun, fun, and well, more fun; leisure at its best. I suppose that’s the purpose of a vacation from school, right? To leave your mind idle and simply seize the less stressful fractions of life.
Yeah, that’s impossible. As much as I try and ‘seize the day’, some sort of tension comes pouring my way. I tried compartmentalizing my priorities recently — to make it easier to deal with. It’s been pretty helpful, thank god. One step at a time, I just gotta keep reminding myself that.
Other than school and financial issues, the summer’s been quite, how should I say this — interesting. Unexpected surprises. Nonetheless, quite pleasant. In this case, without a doubt, I must embrace. And I will.
